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dear Oliver,

hush darling, daddy’s on his way home and as mummy promised, will be sleeping with you in bed tonight.

you’ve had a long day. you went out for breakfast with yeye and told me what you had for breakfast “noodles & char siu” when I asked you about it. And then we went to the airport to see 姐姐 Olivia off as she goes back to Vancouver. I loved the way I saw the both of you hugging each other, and how you bashfully shy away when she gave you a kiss on your cheek. You managed to score some time watching aeroplanes land and take off, your favourite past time each time we go to the airport.

By the time we left the airport, you were sleepy. You finally fell asleep in the carrier, against me. I sent a message to daddy and told him I missed carrying you in the carrier and have you fall asleep against him. Daddy said I should give you loads of kisses on your head and I did. You still smell nice. Haha. That was until you pooped at 婆婆’s house. Then you stank. =P

After dinner, Daddy then called to ask if things were okay cos he had to stay at work a little longer. It meant that I had to shower you and then put you to bed. When it came to putting you to bed, I told you that Daddy was still at work and that I would be the one putting you to bed. My heart broke a little when you said in that sad voice with a sniffle “daddy come home”. Just this morning, when Daddy left the house without you giving him the usual hug and kiss, you looked at me and said, “never give Daddy hug and kiss”. I had to rush to get Daddy before he entered the lift, and he came back to give you the hug you wanted, with a giant kiss and a baby kiss.

You and Daddy have some really great times, especially when the two of you were playing with the Duplo blocks yesterday. Daddy made you a family of giraffes, and you excitedly ran into the dining room with a crocodile made out of Duplo, exclaiming, “this is a crocodile!!”. I love watching the two of you at play. Daddy doesn’t have a lot of time to play with you and I know it means a lot to each of you.

Because of the crappy days we have been having the past few days, I thought that may be you didn’t really want to hang around me. But all of that doesn’t matter now cos you have showed me otherwise. As I put you to bed, I usually have my arm under you so I can pull you towards me. You would start off sleeping on my palm rather than towards me. As you settle down to sleep, you would periodically roll away and then roll back towards me. It was as though you were trying to tell me that it was okay that I was putting you to sleep, you ran your hand through my hair gently, just as I did to try and make you sleep. The other hand wrapped around my head. You would then roll away again, and then roll back towards me, wrap your hands around my face, twiddling my ear before running your hand through my hair again. Daddy said that you would do the same thing to him too.

And I teared. You soothed me as much as I was trying to soothe you, humming “Rock-a-bye Baby” to try and settle you down. You finally fell asleep snuggled against me.

oh Ollie, I hope you know you have our unconditional love, no matter what. You are growing up well, and I hope I do my best to raise you up well. We have many years ahead of us.

I love you.

xoxo
Mummy

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